2018 in review
December 31, 2018
this year, 2018, (more likely the last 6 months) has become
a healing year for me.
best of 2018
including you, i miss you.
there aren't many things i've done besides college
thingy, internships, final report, or just watching movies and having good time
and good food with my closest friends. 2018 becomes the year: i spend a lot of
time thinking for myself: at the library, at home, on the way somewhere.
awalnya, gue tentu merasa aneh karena segalanya terasa berbeda. karena akhir-akhir 2017 sangat sucks hhh. tapi lagi-lagi
gue belajar. belajar mengontrol diri sendiri, belajar memahami bahwa nggak segalanya
harus masuk akal, belajar untuk tidak melulu bertanya ketika sesuatu yang
nggak sesuai terjadi, belajar untuk nggak lagi bersusah payah membela diri,
membuat pertahanan, karena toh akan ada waktunya untuk runtuh juga. setiap
manusia pasti akan kebagian dan punya porsinya masing-masing.
- another wishlist checked off. during my school till my first year in college, i was very interested in education. things im excited about are including the data, facts, education status quo, etc. in 2018, i got the chance to challenge myself and met so many amazing people. gue berkesempatan turun untuk lihat dan ngerasain langsung ketidakmerataan itu (ha!). rasanya? sungguh menyenangkan bisa berbincang dengan anak-anak yang punya sejuta mimpi. berbagi tentang asyiknya jadi mahasiswi, ngobrolin tentang profesi dan kehidupan cerah yang akan datang nanti. despite, some childrens who think they're losing hope. i met them. si "harapan" kita semua yang kehabisan waktu untuk bermimpi atau sekedar membayangkan ingin jadi apa dirinya kelak. menganggap bahwa motivasi.. apa lah? nggak menjanjikan sesuatu yang pasti: you know, that rolling eyes. i even ran out of words to describe how pathetic these things, how bad i am, never been grateful for getting education access easily, without any hassles. i feel so ashamed of myself. wondering who's responsible then to education? is it the government? will they do it or just talk about it, take years to develop and implement their strategies? nope. we should be responsible too. dengan waktu yang sangat singkat tersebut, gue belajar bersikap, tau kapan harus berempati dan nggak melampaui batasan diri. thanks for offering me a little sweet family too, RG :)
- my best best best best best friend graduated and got married early last december. why best best best best best best friend? we're actually rarely had same mindset and.. tastes. selera makan, selera pacar, selera film (biasanya dia yang paling bawel but she's crying for remember when so we're not even friend lol jk). but i always remember that she's the one who can tolerate my dreams and my craziness. kayaknya i mentioned her too in my -2014 in review- posts. i always remember how we spent almost every saturday (during our highschool) visiting perpusnas. terima kasih sudah memenuhi keinginan gue yang saat itu lagi senang-senangnya sama clara ng. dia adalah orang yang ketika masuk perkuliahan (apa tahun kedua? lupa) wearing hijabi dan hijrah ⌣.⌣ (sorry cant stop laughing at that time: me, yang tahu how annoying you are all this time). the first time she told me that she would marry someone (which i dont even know who is he, how old is he, where he lives, what joke he use to cheer her up when she's sad), i just give her one question, “do you believe he’s the one?" the same question that a few years ago she asked me when im getting crazy over someone. terus dia jawab, “inget kejadian yang menimpa gue kemarin. gue nggak bisa memprediksi umur gue sampai kapan”. slapped right in my face. after getting to know him (her hubby now, she called -_-) knowing that he accepted my best friend as she is, would never leave her, will do anything for her, i couldnt ask for more. santi adalah orang yang sederhana. bukan orang yang harus selalu update ini itu, bukan orang yang penuh dengki dan iri hati, bukan orang yang selalu cari masalah kayak sahabatnya ini as known as zamilla. when her wedding got closer, she never dreamed about having a fancy dress or cake, nggak pernah meminta sesuatu yang ribet kecuali bm ngasal yang keluar dari mulutnya aja. padahal kalau nggak terlaksana ya juga bakal bodoamat dia. because i know whats most important to her: her family. congratulations, sweetheart. im so happy walking you up the stairs to the mosque's upper hall.
- tumblr kembali dibuka oleh kemkominfo. keselku sudah mereda jadi aku hanya bisa bersyukur
- di tahun ini gue sangat sering naik kendaraan umum, terutama kereta untuk bepergian. banyak sekali pelajaran yang bisa diambil: kesabaran, kemandirian, kesigapan, ketegaan. shoutout untuk seluruh pejuang commuter line di mana pun kelen berada. zam bahkan nggak akan sanggup.
- also, thanks and kudos to all movie producers and crews and actors for producing such good movies. crazy rich asian, searching, aquaman, to all the boys i’ve loved before, the princess switch, after the rain (Koi wa Ameagari no You ni), whats wrong with secretary kim, welcome to waikiki, kulari ke pantai (idola banget sama happy, “sisteeeer forever!”) and many more.
- also for rendy pandugo, miso, ardhito pramono, reality club, bazzi, thankyou for spending this year with me on spotify. thanku, next by my ari is my favorite. plus blackpink! i dont know how can i fall in love with this girlgroup. i once know some girlgroups such as red velvet, twice, etc but for me there's nothin special about them. blackpink is different. the vibes just feel tooooo good and crazy.
- jadi sering banget di rumah. punya banyak waktu buat keluarga dan teman-teman, hehe. tahun 2017 boro-boro.
- but this year, there are too many natural disasters, (also terorism) that caused people their souls, family, homes and everything else that went on. i actually hate seeing those headlines every day, sometimes i skip it because im too scared. semoga di tahun 2019, negeri ini aman-aman saja. semoga kita, manusia lebih mencintai bumi lagi, lebih sering bersahabat dengan alam. dan semoga Tuhan selalu melindungi kita semua.
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