i hate to wake up everyday with a broken heart and hating life. because i'm losing my mind each time i meet your eyes then suddenly i realized that i have to handle and stop this useless feeling. i dont know, but actually sometimes i can't feel comfortable when i'm with you. all i hear is the beat of my heart getting louder whenever i'm near you. the good thing is, nowadays we rarely to meet or being together.

"which means, when i see you on tuesday morning or other days, it's been like sixty hours since i've taken a breath. that's probably why i'm so crabby, and why i snap at you. all i do when we're apart is think about you, and all i do when we're together is panic. because every second feels so important. and because i'm so out of control, i can't help myself. i'm not even mine anymore, i'm yours, and what if you decide that you don't want me? how could you want me like i want you?"
eleanor was right. but park is hers. and they're not even friends since the first time. and what the hell i did? what the hell i feel to you? i want you. i want all of you. i want to be yours. i want you to be mine. i want you to be happy with me. i want to be the person you miss at 2 a.m. i want to flirting with you like all the time without worrying anything. i want to hangout with you. i want to buy my favorite stuff with you. i want to read many books on rainy day with hot chocolate with you. i want to hold your hand. i want to come to your house. i want you to know how bad i have this feeling for you. i want to spend the rest of my life with you. but you love someone else so i just cant..